Looking back at all the things I have done in my life I ask myself, how did I get here? Thank God there is forgiveness, I would hate to think where I would be if there were no second chances. I'm looking at the kids right now, I watch how they sleep and thank God that I can, back in 06 I would have killed for this, and I never in my wildest dreams thought I could get this all back.
I remember seeing my family go on and live without me, I had no control what they ate where they went or even what they watched on TV, I saw Roger go on and start to make a new life and I didn't know anything about it. But now that I look back when I did have control of everything,where was God? I knew he was there and that I could pray if I needed something but did I let him in?God is so much more in our live thenbefore.Ihave a new out look on God. Youdon't pray to him when you need something, you pray to talk with him so you can walk this world with him at his side.
When people ask me, what's differant this time in your marriage? At first I didn't know what to say, I knew in my heart,and I was excited but I couldn't put it into words until now. So what's differant in our marriage and in our lives this time around is, you ready? It's summed up in one word! GOD!!!
God was there Sunday when we renewed our vows, I saw him! I saw him in every one's face that day! I tell everyone that it was so moving, so much different then before. It's so much better now that God is in it. I can't wait to start this new life with him, and that's so much different in my past life cause I could care less about life, but now I can't wait to see what happens next. And I know there will be hard times but it doesn't scare me like before. He is always here, even when you push him away he is still waiting for you to grab onto him. And that is what is so different this time, our marriage is going to have it's ups and downs and that's OK, we don't have to pretend there's no problems cause I know everyone has their ups and downs and God is right there with us on our own roller coasters!
I'm so lucky to have found this new life, I can't wait to see what's around the corner, and the best thing of all is I have the coolest church family to walk with us! .